Bitch fit #1

Kipanii — Wed, 23 Sep 2009 22:01:36 +0000

I’ve made a conscious decision to hide out for a while, maybe. Everybody pretends to be something they are not and it can be draining. People do senseless things for the sake of popularity and acceptance, I’m feeling a little mixed about people here. Sometimes I really just want to leave, move away from all of these mother fuckers and gain a sense of solidarity – something I can’t have here. But my family depends too much on me to just get gone. I guess I’m in dire need of something new. New people, new friends, new dudes…dudes…ugh.

Shall we talk about the dating scene? Maybe I should leave this subject alone but I won’t because it’s my blog and it has a purpose. I am the first one to preach about good energy and attracting people that are good for you, but it seems like nobody’s good. At first I blamed my insatiable talent for attracting the wrong men at the wrong time on the circles I’m accustomed to, a certain kind of guy – but now I know that’s the farthest from the truth. I’ve dated everyone from the single dad, to the celebrity, to the local celebrity, to the wannabe celebrity fooling everyone but me, to the white guy who knew nothing about black people but only knew black women tasted so good, to the Italian to….you get the point. All around shits wack. So at the moment I’m walking away from love cause it sure as hell don’t love my ass.

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Bitch fit #1